I am just so sick of trying to impress people. I have always tried to be one of those people who felt like she didn’t need to bend to the expectations of others. But it is impossible. Humans are psychologically hardwired to conform. So while I avoid the major peer pressures, I am not immune to the little things, like pretending I like/didn’t like something depending on the sentiments of the people around me. It is a shame that society is geared in such a way that some form of mindless conformity is necessary for basic conversation.
I don’t always realize when I do it. Like if I am not sure how I feel about something, I’ll just agree with the people around me. Sometimes it’s a desire not to fight. It is so superfluous to battle for every thought, every expressed sentiment. Yet I wonder if I am being true to me by just going along with those around me…
